Possession Of Real

He motivates me. Always say what I need to hear when I’m slacking on my dreams. He uplifts my dreams as though he say I shouldn’t give up on what I believe. 

But he says I do the same for him. He continues to grow and he acknowledges mine as well. 

He guides me to challenge my spirituality. Be proud of my color. Me more informative about my surroundings and how to get out of the struggle. 

He’s not a man of just words but action. 

I wouldn’t doubt his love because he always show and tells me in ways everyone doesn’t have to know.  

It’s not for everyone to know, he makes sure that I know first. 

His integrity and self worth is noticeable to everyone around him. 

It’s an honor to know him. 

My Everything

  I prepared for your debut. I couldn’t wait to hold you in my arms. I knew the first time I held you, it was love at first sight. 

That smile, that smile. It lit up my life, wondering how can anything be wrong when having you felt so right. 

I swore an oath to protect you, don’t let any harm touch you, and til this day I’ll die before I leave you. 

Your my first born, my treasure. My reason for not giving up. Seeing your face when I wake up gives me strength to be tough. 

Watching your first steps, I remembering almost crying, well mommy cried a lot, especially at Drs. Visits I hated those shots. 

Hearing your scream in pain, made mommy heart break, but I had to get it together to show you it’ll be ok. 

All the days we went to museums and parks, the times we shared that no one can ever question. 

That young lady loves her babygirl, yes I do baby your my world. 

5 years later and your growing so big, still my little Einstein, I guess that’s why your heads so big. 

Everything can feel so wrong, mommy can have bad days but to come home to my angel makes it all go away. 

We have our thing, only we understand. 

One day you’ll understand this love, and know when you came I finally had a heartbeat. 

My lovely baby, I will love you forever and you will always be Cherish(ed)!

For Cherish❤️💞💜

You

You can make it easy to love you. 

You can make it hard to leave 

You can be my strength in the areas I am weak. 

You can be my knight saving me from cold things, you can be my cover, comforting me. 

You can be my partner, my rock, the reason I smile. 

You can be my babe forever and at all times. 

You can be my heart beat, together we are complete, and without you that heart beat skips with emptiness knowing I’m without one. 

You can be the answer to my heart needs and desires, you can be the end to my pain and hard times 

A gift delivered from God, you can be for me and I for you 

Deficiency Of Light

As I sit in a pool of my failures I wonder where did I go wrong. Countless attempts to get out of the gutter, seemed to pull me deeper into an extremely dark abyss. Tears of emotions of disappointments and whys, I thought I was living life the right way, by doing right. 

Doing right but treated wrong by those doing wrong yet still doing right ignoring the wrongs of others. 

Painting a picture of light but it seems the painter was colorblind to the choosing of color. 

Blinded thinking I was painting this big bright sun, when it was finally revealed to my sight, I painted a dark whole. 

It sucked away my encouragement and dreams. 

Things I didn’t realize where up for grabs and felt like my soul was sold. 

I can’t see, I can’t see. 

Like someone poured alcohol in my eyes, I can’t see, the pain is unbearable I can’t breathe. 

My lungs go out and my heart stopped beating. 

Or was it that my heart stopped beating, my lungs went out and I couldn’t breathe, someone blinded me with fabrication of what I was doing so I did not see. I can’t see, I can’t see. 
It’s a shame when your dreams just end up being memories. 

-B

End Of The Road To ForEver  

Don’t take it personal, I loved you. I cared at one point, but the moment you chose her over me, you left my heart on the same road you picked hers up. 

At one point I wanted to know, what about her made you leave? What about her made you cheat? 

I thought giving you mostly all of me was enough, these tears and dreams of you wont subside, and I’m wondering when you handed me the drivers seat, did I steer us wrong?

I trusted you, I let you blind sight me as you took control of what was suppose to be forever. 

When my eyes finally seen where we were, it was a pile of words, with my heart placed on top. 

Memories of you still in my head, I can’t let it go. Like you released voo-doo on my heart, and I can’t get it back. 

Reverse this curse, I can’t let this be the end of my happiness or let my heart lie at the bottom of your boot. 

Do you even realize the footsteps of my blood that poured from my heart trailing you as you walked away?

After all this time I still can’t let another in, the damage from this crash is hard to recover from. 

Something that can’t be fixed by having you but by truly letting you go, all this time I searched for closure but it’s time I end this book without the ending that was expected. 

It was good while it lasted, a tragedy when it ended, as both stories move on in two different directions, there’s always hope it can meet again later on a crossroad.  

Eyes Of Beauty (Beautiful Soul) 

  

When I look into your eyes, I can see your very soul. The depths of its beauty and the intimacy of your world. 

I can see a galaxy of love and sunshine all around you, it’s what they call a halo, but with you it’s more like a crown of true purpose. 

Made perfectly, made just for me. When I’m around you it isn’t a me or a you, just 2 hearts combining into one, one soul, one life connected by God himself and if I can admit, I say my soulmate. 

Not just the way I feel with you but, what I don’t without you. You complete me, not just have my heart in your hand or pocket, but as if you attached it to your own and created a new heart. 

How can I not have sex with you, and feel like I have, how can I lay next to you and hold you and be satisfied physically? How can your kisses mean more than the words  I love you when you’ve shown me enough, I don’t need them. 

Our spirits intertwined, LoveTogether, I know when I’m with you there’s no place greater. So if I die in your arms I’ve made it to heaven, and if I’m dreaming don’t wake me. 

Life just isn’t worth living, if you can’t live it with me. 

Watched You Sleeping

Staring at your lips, rubbing my hand lightly across your face.

 Whispering how much I love you in your ear. 

Envisioning life with you, the great things we could do together. 

I realized how much I loved you, how much you completed me. 

That no matter what we had faced, we did together. 

Couldn’t imagine life without you, couldn’t wait to tell the story to our kids, how we met and how we grew. 

Even if we drifted apart, I knew I could never love another like I love you. 

My first true love and my best friend. 

A Letter To A Lost Friend 

I tossed and turned all night thinking of you. Our last conversation and how you are going through. Though I was there to listen I wondered what can I do? As I contemplated on words to choose I was left with no words for comfort I was just mute. What’s life without friends to help you through? What’s emptiness when you have gave all of you? I understand your pain though I have been down too. Your eyes crying for a filling and I see right through. The smile the brave posture. Your words saying you know what to do, yet you can’t find the strength to reach to. I know thoughts weigh heavy on you, that why I try to make my self available to you. So you know your not alone, yet when you feel when my shoulder can be your home. I don’t have all the answers, and I don’t know why you feel the way you do. I see your pain and loneliness and you have seen mine too. I hurt when you hurt, I cry when you cry. It’s ashamed after giving so much of yourself when your weak you don’t know where to turn to. But I’m here, ready to wipe every tear. Here to hold you up in the only way I know how, so say these words with me to. Dear God I know your there, my friend is lost in her own world not knowing what to do. So we come to you, we surrender our problems to you. Knowing you can fill any emptiness with your love and comfort too. We ask for a change, we ask for a blessing, we ask because your son died so that we may be whole, change our soul, change our thoughts, change the pain that lies in our hearts. Heal what’s broken and wounded right now God. I believe in you as you believe in me, do what only you can do. Now as we ask these things in you, we yield to your answer. And if God it doesn’t come tonight let the joy you give come in he morning. I won’t rest until you bless me like Jacob did with the Angel, because you promised you won’t but more on me than I can handle. In your son Jesus NAME AMEN. 
So now my friend may you rest in peace knowing God has heard our call, and will meet your need. Everything will work out fine, God is sending your answer through his express mail. Tell the devil he can go back to hell. With his thoughts of discouragement and his ways to attack your mind. He may have won a battle but remember the war is yours!     

-Brianna Whittington 

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Stop Announcing Haters

We know they exist. No need to give them a stage and award ceremony for doing their job. You would hope that everyone wants to see each other progress, but the days we live in are plain selfish! No one will help the elderly carry bags in, and they are afraid to allow it, cause of the fear of being robbed. No one to congratulate and involve the neighbors in sending off a young black child off to college, without the mentality of assuming someone thinks they are better than someone else. Really? That is very ridiculous. When someone assumes another being is acting like they are better than someone, jealousy usually takes in that spot. You wish you had something they have otherwise you’d know that, you are just as important as they are. Bragging about how much money you make? Why? No one cares for one, two what are you doing with it other than blowing it on material things that wont last? Nothing. When people realize the hype of money and material things is irrelevant, it can help save our culture. Everyone wants to be a model or rapper instead of an activist in the communities. So many are displaying the black culture in a negative way, we wonder why we are targeted. Everyone’s talking but what are they saying? No women teaching other young women about respecting themselves, but the will have many tutorials about how to twerk. Wow. Says a lot. The image is about the body except the brains and the heart. Inspiring young people to buy the things they cant afford, but will go broke buying instead of being responsible.  What is there to hate about someone who dropped out, selling drugs, and mis use people? Nothing! Your “fan club” aka haters, that your imagining you have, don’t exist. Your delusional.

“Looking Past Me”

God help me see myself the way you see me.

This is something i struggle with.
I can’t see past who i am, and how im not worthy of his love and grace. Lil ole me? Nah. God did you get me mixed up with someone else? He says i have the perfect tools he needs to reach the people who are like me. I again, God? Me? Can’t be. God I’m not Holy, and i make mistakes, i tend to blame others for my wrongs, and i can’t speak to people without being nervous. No God you need someone bold, and Holy, and someone thats totally opposite from me. I can’t be your go to.

I’ve said this so many times. Yet when I’ve learned that God uses the messed up ones and does a major change on the inside, they become what he needed to reach others. See my life has its up and downs, and i thought going to God was going to make it easy. Boy was i wrong. It enhanced my trials because the enemy had a goal to reach. To stop me from committing to Gods word.. to mislead my thoughts and to over take my emotions and make me believe whats not true. He made me delusional in my thinking. Believing whats not real, but i just swore it was. Wow. But God says your the perfect candidate for what i need done Brianna. You can bring what some others can’t. But you have to be willing to let me in and stop worrying about what others think. Stop trying to portray this image of not needing anyone, and that you can make it happen on your own. You can’t. Not without me.
Ok so God how can i let go? How can i really trust you? My word.
Thats it? Your word?
Yes my word is all you need. It has everything you need to trust in me, and get you through whatever you face.
Believe?

Believe is a word of hope. See my problem was not believing. I would start out good. Just wouldn’t finish. Being able to stand regardless of what comes is endurance. Its what can help you remain in Him.
Life isnt a fairytale, its rough. But its not what you go through, its how you react and deal with it.
Whats your healing process like?
Is it loud and childish? Depression? Giving up?
Your better than that. Your God is bigger than that.
Learn to stand. Believe. Trust. Depend. Live. & Love God.
What do you have to lose if you don’t have anything anyway?
The Message is essential…..
You Have The Messages To The Change Needed In The World Today.