Healing Journey

Choosing to be sober and deal with life ….. came with so much I didn’t expect. Emotions like crazy. Apologizing. Forgiving myself and others. Accountability. Loving on purpose. Thinking of how I can affect someone in multiple ways, so I’m making sure I don’t make the wrong ones. Just simply wanting to work on trauma and heal so that I can be at peace. Peace within self. You’ve ever experienced so much noise, that it gets so loud you can’t take it? Then decide ok THIS IS ENOUGH!!! I want PEACE so I got to take out this trash and unpack all this trauma so I can win and do better for the future mini me’s. I’ve cried so much, talked out so much, realized why I do this and that! & it’s beautiful but UGLY! Because you experience yourself in the most truest form. The good the bad, the ugly, the vulnerability, the ego, the pride, the little girl and the grown woman. Taking it all in to love on purpose and to possess wholeness and love and freedom of happiness because I did the work. The journey gets lonely because you have to choose between the past and how it’s been going and, what you desire to be. Not both. One or the other, which could cause you to lose friends or family. So to anyone who’s also on this path, know I am too. Far from perfect and not trying to be, just trying to be better than I was/am. -B❤️

Stop Announcing Haters

We know they exist. No need to give them a stage and award ceremony for doing their job. You would hope that everyone wants to see each other progress, but the days we live in are plain selfish! No one will help the elderly carry bags in, and they are afraid to allow it, cause of the fear of being robbed. No one to congratulate and involve the neighbors in sending off a young black child off to college, without the mentality of assuming someone thinks they are better than someone else. Really? That is very ridiculous. When someone assumes another being is acting like they are better than someone, jealousy usually takes in that spot. You wish you had something they have otherwise you’d know that, you are just as important as they are. Bragging about how much money you make? Why? No one cares for one, two what are you doing with it other than blowing it on material things that wont last? Nothing. When people realize the hype of money and material things is irrelevant, it can help save our culture. Everyone wants to be a model or rapper instead of an activist in the communities. So many are displaying the black culture in a negative way, we wonder why we are targeted. Everyone’s talking but what are they saying? No women teaching other young women about respecting themselves, but the will have many tutorials about how to twerk. Wow. Says a lot. The image is about the body except the brains and the heart. Inspiring young people to buy the things they cant afford, but will go broke buying instead of being responsible.  What is there to hate about someone who dropped out, selling drugs, and mis use people? Nothing! Your “fan club” aka haters, that your imagining you have, don’t exist. Your delusional.