They Never Asked Me What I Wanted

You hear or see on television, how parents or grandparents ask children what do you want to be when you grow up?  

They’d know and say loud and firm a doctor, a lawyer, a firefighter, policeman, super hero, etc. 

Here I am today left without an answer. 

No one asked me. I explored my talents like basketball, drawing, poetry, running, singing. Not once did someone ask what I wanted out of this life. Here as I stand as an adult and they want an answer and a final decision on where I’m going, seeing that my thirties aren’t that far away. They expect more and I expect to have a decision yet when I go to speak in mute. 

I have multiple ideas. Oh yea! Multiple. What I would like to do and even those answer none of them, well maybe a couple relate but they are so far stretched its like trying to tell your mom she’s wrong. 

I sound difficult right? But I’m being honest. I want to be able to make strong decisions. But my focus to stick to one life career choice is really a big mess. College? No College? Work here? Work for myself? Volunteer ? Just all over the map. 

Usually when asked what you want to be your parents or whomever help to steer you in that path. See I’ve been looking out for myself since a kid and even then I was lost as to what to do. I was told maybe you have a disorder where you have trouble staying  focus although possible it still isn’t a excuse. 

I’m bringing awareness to the importance of asking questions you may have not even considered that may affect a child’s life. It’s important to know and support their goals. Even if they’re like me “indecisive” still help talk out of them what it is they really want and help them get there. 

Be present in support. 

Friends With GOD Benefits 

In a recent event I was wanting to start a prayer chain for an individual. As I scrolled through my contacts I had no one to start that with. Not family or friends. I prayed myself because regardless I know God hears prayers. But the thought dawned on me, having family and friends avaliable to contact through hard times is a need as a Christian. 

My contacts lacked connections to others with a connection to the Source I needed at the time. That was an eye opener. It also made me question my surroundings. 

My mom always told me, “who you surround yourself with is a reflection of you“. And like mostly all the time she’s right. So slowly I started to remove friends or associates that weren’t representing what I was trying to be. Although I removed a lot of people, I also didn’t replace them with good company. 

You always want to have those to pray for you and with you in hard times or just even on a regular. It’s healthy to have a few praying buddies on your team. When you learn to really appreciate the value of Gods line to him, you will take advantage of it. Amazing things were and are done in prayer. We have that it’s God given. 

Remember to always look at who you surround yourself with, make sure it’s a group of people who have a relationship with God, and prays regularly. That tool alone will help. Also those who aren’t afraid to let the world know they are his children. 

I sure will be searching and reaching out to more young praying people. Not just for praying reasons but to enjoy life with and maybe even witness to others about Jesus Christ. 

Have a great day, God Bless. 

Private Education 

I have been looking into sending my soon-to-be 5 year old into private school. The public schools here in Milwaukee just isn’t the best. One problem, the COST of private schooling when your a one income home and no help. I tried to find more scholarships and grants to help and I won’t give up yet. But, it struck a nerve of mine to know how hard it is when you truly want the best for your children. How much money and even more sacrifices I will have to make to get her into one. I will pray that God sends help to get her into one. Public schools aren’t the worst but they just don’t have a heart in them like it use to when I was coming up. It’s sad but also its bad. The inner city as they call bad neighborhood kids don’t get a great education. Barely anything, although I work with my daughter at home and she’s very advanced for a 4 year old, I still want her to be able to have a school with great academics and music and athletics. So she can spread her mind into a lot of things to find out who she is. Pray along with me that God makes a way, and that I can with God get my child a better education without breaking my pockets.

Thanks Guys! 

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